Probably go mad all by myself…
Ah, Chris Whitley… tellin’ it like it is.
So it’s 12:07 pm and I’m sitting here hoping my mom doesn’t come downstairs to find out why I’m still up. I don’t want anymore mothering today. I’m all caught up. I’m certainly old enough to stay up as late as I please.
On a related side note: Would SOMEONE please send me a laptop for Christmas? It should have wireless capabilities and have a decent amount of memory. With this laptop, I will be able to write to you, dear reader, any old time - early, late and in-between. Fearlessly.
Sad, isn’t it? I am begging people I might not even know to send me a damn laptop. (But just do it, okay?)
Things are going okay. I had a pleasant time shopping after work. Some presents for the above-mentioned mom, a few things for the spouse and a friend. Nothing -nothing!- for me. Hmph! It’s okay… I have more than I need. I actually really do like gift giving. (I really like the part where I get to make packages pretty.)
Here’s another tune:
One of you will call me cheesy. I care not: I am cheesy.
Anyway, I have continued to be cheery, singing Christmas carols, decorating the office and my home, either completely sucking it all in and maintaining a shiny pocket of denial or maybe being genuinely cheery.
Does it matter which, really?
Of course it matters. Truly, I think it’s a combination. An emotional value-pack, super-sized. Yeah, yeah. Bite-sized denial with a cheery dipping sauce. Yum.
I leave you with Nick Drake. He brings out my melancholy…
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